By: Kymberly Nicole
“You have such a pretty face for a big girl”
“You probably can’t lose weight because you’re too big to workout”
“Why don’t you workout more, you would lose weight & be more successful”
I think I’ve heard all of the “back hand” compliments, advice and snide remarks about my size. For a long time I internalized all of those comments, and felt like what’s the use, I’m FAT, and that’s that. I felt sorry for myself and thought all of these pseudo experts just don’t understand, it’s just not that easy.
When I open a fitness/health magazine I rarely see women who look like me. I go into some gyms/classes and feel unwelcome and like a side show attraction. I watch TV shows where full size people are crying, throwing up and miserable trying to lose weight. While that works for some it’s not my idea of a good time. I know exercise is hard work and to be healthy on the inside you have to get your body moving.
Finally after trying many activities and spending lots of money on “lose 100lbs in 2 weeks” gimmicks, gadgets and equipment. I’ve found what works for me!
Of course the overhaul of my diet has played a major role in the turnaround of my health. But doing what I dread most……Exercise, is transforming my mind even more than my body. I have enjoyed my curvy inspired group events like the “Intimate Fitness” classes, I also love working out at a gym….yes a gym, that welcomes all, Planet Fitness!
I’ve learned that I’m a much stronger and disciplined woman than I ever could have imagined. I had to become my own inspiration! When I look in the mirror I’m proud of my curves but I’m also proud that I can walk up the stairs at the train station when I go to work without becoming winded. I can take a walk with my kids and not be exhausted midway. While I may still have a long way to go, I’m happy with the small victories along the way, including sharing my insecurities. I’m doing my part so that I can live a long happy life!
I may not look like the women in those fitness/health publications but I’m just as confident, strong & happy! And maybe just maybe one day you all will see me in one of those magazine, hips, thighs, curves and ALL!
I live by this thought……”Love yourself and the skin you’re in. We get one shot at this life, if you make mistakes learn from them and move on. If you want to change something about yourself, change it, but do it for you…..”